I was talking through some of my feelings and challenges on the phone with my friend Stacy. Basically, I melted on her. I don't understand why God has asked (forced) me to leave home to move across the country home. Among other things, she reminded me that my friends, though 900 miles away, are still here for me.
Next time I was bored and lonely, I picked up the phone.
It has been so good to hear the voices of the people I love so much. Sometimes we talk about our days, sometimes about superfluous things, and sometimes our conversations go deeper. Sometimes there is silence on the phone, just like there is in face to face conversation. But neither of us hang up.
Over the phone you can't have a sleepover with two twenty-somethings in a twin bed, you can't have children fall out of the laundry shoot, and you can't have a spontaneous dance party in the living room... but you can remember and laugh about them.
Over Skype, there are still quotes for Wacky Wednesday, still crazy facial expressions, and still people falling off the bed.
As I sat down to dinner alone, I plugged in my new Peder Eide Rescue CD. The first time I heard "That's What Family Does," I figured it would need some time to grow on me. It only took one more listening and it had grown! It had me almost in tears. (Though, I will admit: that's pretty easy these days).
"That's What Family Does" by Peder Eide
There are times when life is tough
and a yes to God is not enough.
When the hill is steep,
the summit high.
You wonder why.
You've lost your spark, your fight, your song
now wrong seems right
and right seems wrong.
Look around and see
the face of family
and lean into the love.
Lift each other up,
cheer each other on.
We do it all because
that's what family does.
The table's set
and the food is hot
reminding you what you've forgot
the warmth of home,
and a fragrant grace,
a holy place.
And all of us
can hardly wait
to hold you close
and celebrate.
Look around and see
the face of family
and lean into the love.
Lift each other up,
cheer each other on.
We do it all because
that's what family does.
They say out there that no one cares and you are all alone.
Seems they may be alone, well, we claim you as our own.
My spark, fight, and song are missing in action...
I can't physically look around and see... but I can see the face of family in my phone bill and my Skype's "Recent" log. I can lean into the love even if that means no hugs.
Though it's not ideal, I'm lovin' it!
<>< Katie
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