"What more do you want from God?" Neal asked the congregation. We all came from very different backgrounds united only in the Lord.
"¿Qué más quiere de Dios?" Manolo translated.
I didn't need to wait for the translation before I began making a mental list of things I wanted from God. All selfish things, too. I was in Nicaragua and still had an out-standing balance on my trip. I had applied to five graduate schools and was still hoping for acceptances. I was hoping to head to China in the summer and was waiting for those pieces to fall into place.
"He's already give you Jesus." Neal's words slapped my list-making face. I needed to hear them again.
"Él ya te dio Jesús."
What more can I want from God when He's already give me the best He can: His Son. He's already given me all that I need, and it's called grace. He's engraved my name on the palm of His hand, and I'm asking for money. He's given me purpose, hope, and a future and there I sat in an uncomfortable Nicaraguan folding chair asking for more.
I felt naked, like my selfish, dirty list had been broadcast by the broken LCD projector. In a way, they were. They were available for One to know.
I like to think God chuckled when He watched me frantically try to erase them, delete them, unthink them.
I gave up on my list that day. I took peace in Abba giving me His Son. What more could I ever need or dare to want?
Days like today it's easy to start making a list again. I want this job interview to go well. I want to see her joy and her smile on this earth once again. I want reassurance that God truly is good and in control.
I want everyone to know the hope we all have in Jesus. Jesús. 耶稣.
I want all of God's children to know how loved they are by their Father. I want them to know forgiveness as intimately as I do. To know they don't need any more than that.
Abba, use me to reach Your people. May my life show Your love today and every day. In the States and across the world. When things go well and when dreams aren't achieved. Lord, let my love for You be contagious. When people see me may they have no choice but to love You more. Draw them into Your loving arms, Lord. May they know that no matter what life brings, Jesus is enough. Our greatest need has been satisfied. Thank You for Jesus. Teach me to remember that He is enough, always more than enough.
This is my prayer. My hope. My desire.